July 30th, 2003

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I sent off 5 letters on Tuesday to prisoners in GA, KS,IN, and IL. I also put my name and address in a thing that is sent to hundreds of prisoners so they can write me if they want before me writing to them. I don't know what my fascination with prison and prisoners stemmed from. Maybe it's because my brother has been in and out for 10 years, maybe it's because when I wrote Richard Ramirez, he wrote back eager to hear about life on the outside and I realized that people who are in prison for a long time don't have many people to talk to. I wrote him in the first place because he interested me the most. People seem to think I'm sick for writing people who have murdered. They seem to think I write them out of idolization or adoration... but it's really because I wonder what the fuck is going on inside their heads. Richard and I eventually quit writing, We never got personal enough to where I felt comfortable asking him about the murders... and I started looking for more people to write in prison... I think I realized that he probably gets hundreds of letters every month and has plenty of correspondance, but people who aren't famous who are in prison don't, I think they appreciate my letters more. They're also much quicker to tell me about what they did or why they did it. That's the stuff that interests me. I think I'm going to get my GED and become a prison guard. I have no idea what the purpose of this entry is. I hope the mail comes soon.
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