July 7th, 2003

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I can't sleep. I have to stay out all night and keep myself occupied to keep my mind off of things until I nearly pass out. When I finally get to sleep, I wake up every hour or so because my stomach hurts, and it's complete hell trying to go back to sleep. I can only sleep for a few hours at a time before I have to get up again and wait for my body and mind to get so tired that I can't force it awake anymore. I feel like I'm going to puke, but I can't because theres nothing to throw up. I can't eat. I get the feeling of butterflies in my stomach followed by nausea and something tickling my gag reflex but I can't make it go away. Shoot me now.
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